I Wanted to Hear God's Voice

I wanted to hear God’s voice but did not know who to listen to.

I listened to Siri but she said she needed one time access to my precise location. 

I listened to my neighbor who told me,”Look at the world-God does not exist! 

I listened to my co-worker who told me to work more to save the world. We didn’t have time to listen for God.

I listened to my friend and she gave me a long list of rules and told me I would never find God if I did not follow the rules.

I listened to my cousin who told me to pray the rosary. I really tried but found it was a sure way for me to fall asleep.

I tried to ask my parents but they were too busy looking at their phones.

I listened to a talk show host who recommended a cleanse. That gave me indigestion and left me starving.

I listened to a spiritual guru and traveled to Arizona for a 4 day retreat where I could spend more money buying their books and a logo imprinted t-shirt. 

I listened to the silence for years. Most of the time while I listened to the silence I made a mental to-do-list or became annoyed at the chirping birds outside my window for intruding on the silence.  I kept returning to the silence because something was calling me to it. Over time I became more thoughtful, empathetic, loving and calmer. I discovered I wanted to follow God wherever God wanted me to go, if only God would tell me what to do. I kept waiting to hear God’s voice but was met with more silence.  I finally understood God’s voice was the silence.